when asked what my greatest flaw is, i struggle to give an answer. i know i have flaws, but for some reason none of them seem very ‘great’. but recently i’ve been getting glimpses into my subconscious, and my subconscious begs to differ. it’s as if my deficiencies are so enormous that in my normal, daily life they aren’t recognized as inadequacies, in fact, they aren’t recognized at all (the picture that comes to mind is a ‘wall’ that turns out to be a giant’s foot, or something like that).

and even then, i don’t know if they are flaws, but more like gaps, more akin to being born without a limb or something.

i don’t feel like i know, or can even begin to know what these insufficiencies are, but sometimes i feel them rear their heads, like seeing something out of the corner of your eye, or gnawing like that feeling you get when you know you’re forgetting something.

i guess it could be as simple as a lack of experience or self-awareness. but all i know is that at some point today i felt like i was about 3/4 of a person(ality) and while i can’t say that i was saddened or worried by it, i do feel like it would be great to be a whole one (that is, a whole person.)

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~ by justinhong on November 19, 2007.

One Response to “”

  1. i wonder if it’s better to know of them than not?and i wonder how Jesus transforms these insufficiencies of ours.press on bro 🙂

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